i'm currently "handling" my emotions best I can. i often go days without a single tear, then suddenly I hear a song that reminds me so much of her, and i just completely lose it, and when i lose it, i can't stop. i went to see a friend play at hotel cafe the other night, but my emotions got the best of me, and i just cried and cried and cried and cried some more. i'm sure the people sitting across from me thought I was crazy, but i just couldn't stop. my life feels incomplete without her, and i am often reminded by the lyrics of many songs. i frequently ask myself if i will ever feel the way i did the day before she killed herself. it'll get better, it has to.
i've been keeping myself very busy, photographing continuously. just this week we photographed a wedding at the heritage square museum, candace nelson for sprinkles cupcakes, and maya brenner at her office and her home. it's definitely been keeping my mind occupied which i'm so thankful for, and I am beyond grateful to be doing what I love. i just think this whole grieving "thing" is going to take some time. xo